United States, (b. 1960)
Traffic Jam
- I try to make eye contact with a pig.
- I see rumps and flanks, snouts
- through the flesh-hauler’s metal mesh,
- but no eyes and therefore no piggy soul
- greets me. We who were speeding
- now inch toward fate, fabled endpoint
- when spoils will be allotted and heads
- chopped off. We think of change as waiting
- ahead, a leash dragging us forward. Onward
- occidental soldiers. The next installment
- may well be mundane, tar slingers patching
- the long slink of highway, or deadly,
- iron jaws chewing at a Nova’s collapsed door
- as a man struggles to remember the one prayer
- he knows. Condensed, it goes something like
- Our Father, save my ass. The pigs
- will soon fulfill their bacon and pork rind
- destiny. Their stench is a hook through my nose.
- Probably the farmer doesn’t mind. He smells
- cash, knows his shoes and snow tires
- are gifts of swine. In some psychic stratum
- his identity and theirs have fused,
- fostering a love similar to a painter’s
- infatuation with her fat tubes of color.
- On the highway the jostling begins. From the air
- it’d look like a loom, cars strung out
- like multi-colored threads. And here he comes,
- the inevitable throttle-jock in a Vette
- or Trans Am who figures going eighty’s
- even easier when everyone else sits still.
- He’ll cut through us like a ginsu knife,
- like a neutrino on its way to forever being
- on its way. Arrival is the issue. When will we get
- where, and will what’s happening there
- play like the cinema of our dreams? I’m learning
- to accept these moments as lesson. Slow down.
- Take time to smell the pigs. Try to look one
- in the eye, feel the press of its stubborn being
- against mine. Let what’s behind me catch up.
- The woman bearing nature’s smile. The kid
- endlessly waving because he’s just learned
- an open palm cracks the shell of others’ lives.
- The man crying because the radio’s sent him
- a song from adolescence, a true love tune
- he thought he’d outgrown but sings with a teenager’s
- sob-packed fury. As traffic stops some get out
- to inspect stasis. With horn blasts come pig squeals.
- Somewhere John Cage taps a dead man’s foot, pleased
- by the music of happenstance. I close my eyes
- and accept the idle of the pig truck as the blather
- of a river. What we say to rivers they say back.
- This makes us feel less alone, not so afraid.
- I picture the person who’ll shoot or stun the pigs
- singing to them, even stroking them once, quickly
- though delicately, an assembly line of slaughter
- and devotion. It’s my way of imagining a hand
- filling mine with confidence at the end.
© Bob Hicok. The Legend of Light. University of Wisconsin Press (1995).
1935
for Lester Hicok
- He rode in the back with apples and wind.
- Rumor was a blast furnace in Battle Creek
- needed to be fed. He followed the scent
- of work, rode in the back with an ax
- and pig. In Battle Creek he’d stand with fifty
- or a thousand men. They’d shuffle and smoke,
- some would talk while others hid in their hats.
- After a while a man with a clipboard
- would ask what he asked and stare as long
- as he liked. His nod meant food. He rode
- in the back on a coil of chain-link fence.
- It was warm, shadows popped up from the fields.
- In Battle Creek he’d stand. A man would come,
- he’d wear a tie and his socks would match.
- A furnace needed to be fed, a roof had to rise
- over dirt, a pile of steel wanted to move
- somewhere else. The rumor was work.
- He rode without waving to the men
- in other trucks. A rumor was often a lock
- on a door. He followed the scent,
- rode in the back with apples and wind,
- with the tools of his hands and the shadow
- of his head running beside the truck.
- It got to Battle Creek before he did.
- He found other 111en,their hats,
- their cigarettes. He found that their eyes
- didn’t want him. The furnace was happy
- and fat, it didn’t need to be fed. Rumor
- was a man in Flint had a place and a thing
- that needed to be done. He followed the scent,
- stuck out his thumb. This is how
- my grandfather lived. In the back with a pig.
© Bob Hicok. Insomnia Diary. Pittsburgh: University of Pittsburgh Press (2004).
About the Poet
Bob Hicok, United States, (b. 1960), is a poet, and worked for many years in the automotive die industry in Michigan. Hicok taught creative writing at Virginia Tech, in Blacksburg, VA.
His poetry has appeared in numerous publications, including Poetry, Paris Review, The New Yorker and Ploughshares. Hicok is the author of has ten collections of poetry and was a winner of an NEA Fellowship and two Pushcart Prizes. [DES-10/21]