United States, (1925-2010)
ALL THE WAY HOME
…’freedom’ here is to accept NECESSITY
— Frank Bidart
- The old hog, strung by hamstrings
- on a singletree, hung from a post
- lodged in the forks of trees,
- his skin blanched from draining
- the jugular.
- I’d watched him killed by a shot
- between the eyes, knifed at the neck,
- dragged to the scalding place,
- scraped of bristles with a dull
- butcher knife.
- The sight of the pale hog,
- hanging loose, naked to uncaring eyes,
- icy wind, moved me as my father’s
- savage acts had not. I watched Uncle Joe
- cut the neck around the base,
- backbone to backbone, twist off the head.
- Father carried it on a tray,
- its dull eyes staring. I thought
- of John the Baptist.
- Father knifed the carcass
- crotch to chin, careful of membranes.
- He cut the large intestine at the anus,
- tied it in a knot, cut the gullet at the throat,
- then sliced the membranes, allowing twisted guts
- to slide into the washtub smooth as apple jelly.
- The liver, kidneys, lungs and heart
- were all excised and set aside, the small
- intestines drained for chitterlings.
- The men trimmed valves, veins, arteries,
- and sliced away leaf lard, tossing it
- into the pot for rendering.
- I buttoned my coat, shivering,
- tied my scarf tight at the neck
- against the first freeze of autumn
- to fall on the full of the moon, while
- Uncle Joe axed the backbone on both sides;
- the body fell apart marring its symmetry.
- Father talked of tenderloin, ham, barbecued ribs,
- crisp bacon, and middling meat seasoning a pot
- of pinto beans simmering on the stove in winter.
- I remembered his warnings to eat more meat,
- more protein to make mind and muscles strong,
- dreading tortuous meals eating liver
- before it spoiled.
- I thought of mother’s work to follow:
- rendering lard, grinding and canning sausage,
- smoking hams, shoulders, bacon sides, cooking
- souse, stirring caldrons of lye soap.
- I’d stayed home from high school
- that day to help. I was useless: slow
- to move, squeamish of blood, raw meat,
- suspicious of my parents for their relish
- of the kill, hating their calloused faces,
- their blood-stained hands. Nobody noticed.
- Hog killing was a family celebration.
- Half a world and twenty years away
- on banks of the Kafue River,
- beneath towering mahogany, acacia,
- and other trees I cannot name,
- I watched Zambian villagers carve
- an elephant. Stripped to the waist,
- the blood-stained bodies glistened
- obsidian in filtered sunlight.
- Long knives sliced from testicles
- to throat, entrails oozed
- on a carpet of leaves, drained,
- cleaned for chitterlings.
- Lungs, liver, heart, cooked
- in clay pots over twig-fed flames,
- the trunk chopped for pot roasts.
- Gray skin, underside white
- and rubbery, axed in yard-long
- squares. Red, striated meat
- cut in strips, piled on squares
- of skin, waited to be smoked
- on inclined sapling frames.
- What remained was scattered bones.
About the Poet:
Stacy Johnson Tuthill, United States, (1925-2010), was a poet, writer and publisher. She was a graduate of the University of Kentucky BA, and received her MA from the University of Illinois. She founded a small, non-profit literary press, Sound and Color of Poetry (SCOP) Publications in 1976, based in College Park, Maryland. SCOP published Tuthill’s Laurels: Eight Women Poets in 1998, which documented all the women who had served up to that time as US Poets Laureate.
She received a Works-in-Progress Grant from the Maryland Arts Council to spend the academic year 1987-88 in Kenya to write a collection of short stories with a setting in East Africa. In 1995, she published a volume of short fiction, The Taste of Smoke: Stories About Africa. Tuthill is the author of five full-length books of poems and two chapbooks, including Painting in the Dark (2007). Her Poems and short stories have appeared in numerous literary magazines and anthologies. [DES-07/22]