Tuthill, Stacy Johnson

United States, (1925-2010)

ALL THE WAY HOME
…’freedom’ here is to accept NECESSITY
— Frank Bidart

  1. The old hog, strung by hamstrings
  2. on a singletree, hung from a post
  3. lodged in the forks of trees,
  4. his skin blanched from draining
  5. the jugular.
  6.  
  7. I’d watched him killed by a shot
  8. between the eyes, knifed at the neck,
  9. dragged to the scalding place,
  10. scraped of bristles with a dull
  11. butcher knife.
  12.  
  13. The sight of the pale hog,
  14. hanging loose, naked to uncaring eyes,
  15. icy wind, moved me as my father’s
  16. savage acts had not. I watched Uncle Joe
  17. cut the neck around the base,
  18. backbone to backbone, twist off the head.
  19.  
  20. Father carried it on a tray,
  21. its dull eyes staring. I thought
  22. of John the Baptist.
  23. Father knifed the carcass
  24. crotch to chin, careful of membranes.
  25. He cut the large intestine at the anus,
  26. tied it in a knot, cut the gullet at the throat,
  27. then sliced the membranes, allowing twisted guts
  28. to slide into the washtub smooth as apple jelly.
  29.  
  30. The liver, kidneys, lungs and heart
  31. were all excised and set aside, the small
  32. intestines drained for chitterlings.
  33. The men trimmed valves, veins, arteries,
  34. and sliced away leaf lard, tossing it
  35. into the pot for rendering.
  36. I buttoned my coat, shivering,
  37. tied my scarf tight at the neck
  38. against the first freeze of autumn
  39. to fall on the full of the moon, while
  40. Uncle Joe axed the backbone on both sides;
  41. the body fell apart marring its symmetry.
  42. Father talked of tenderloin, ham, barbecued ribs,
  43. crisp bacon, and middling meat seasoning a pot
  44. of pinto beans simmering on the stove in winter.
  45. I remembered his warnings to eat more meat,
  46. more protein to make mind and muscles strong,
  47. dreading tortuous meals eating liver
  48. before it spoiled.
  49.  
  50. I thought of mother’s work to follow:
  51. rendering lard, grinding and canning sausage,
  52. smoking hams, shoulders, bacon sides, cooking
  53. souse, stirring caldrons of lye soap.
  54. I’d stayed home from high school
  55. that day to help. I was useless: slow
  56. to move, squeamish of blood, raw meat,
  57. suspicious of my parents for their relish
  58. of the kill, hating their calloused faces,
  59. their blood-stained hands. Nobody noticed.
  60. Hog killing was a family celebration.
  61.  
  62. Half a world and twenty years away
  63. on banks of the Kafue River,
  64. beneath towering mahogany, acacia,
  65. and other trees I cannot name,
  66. I watched Zambian villagers carve
  67. an elephant. Stripped to the waist,
  68. the blood-stained bodies glistened
  69. obsidian in filtered sunlight.
  70. Long knives sliced from testicles
  71. to throat, entrails oozed
  72. on a carpet of leaves, drained,
  73. cleaned for chitterlings.
  74. Lungs, liver, heart, cooked
  75. in clay pots over twig-fed flames,
  76. the trunk chopped for pot roasts.
  77. Gray skin, underside white
  78. and rubbery, axed in yard-long
  79. squares. Red, striated meat
  80. cut in strips, piled on squares
  81. of skin, waited to be smoked
  82. on inclined sapling frames.
  83. What remained was scattered bones.

 Stacy Johnson Tuthill. PENNYROYAL, engraving by Rosemary Feit Covey. College Park, MD: SCOP Publications, Inc. (1991).

About the Poet:

Stacy Johnson Tuthill, United States, (1925-2010), was a poet, writer and publisher. She was a graduate of the University of Kentucky BA, and received her MA from the University of Illinois. She founded a small, non-profit literary press, Sound and Color of Poetry (SCOP) Publications in 1976, based in College Park, Maryland. SCOP published Tuthill’s Laurels: Eight Women Poets in 1998, which documented all the women who had served up to that time as US Poets Laureate.

She received a Works-in-Progress Grant from the Maryland Arts Council to spend the academic year 1987-88 in Kenya to write a collection of short stories with a setting in East Africa. In 1995, she published a volume of short fiction, The Taste of Smoke: Stories About Africa. Tuthill is the author of five full-length books of poems and two chapbooks, including Painting in the Dark (2007). Her Poems and short stories have appeared in numerous literary magazines and anthologies. [DES-07/22]

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